I gave you the feeling I loved you. I never loved you, I liked you. Like a friend and a lover. I barely knew you. You never gave me the chance to get to know you, cause your weakness showed up. It doesn't make any sense to let go of something you wanted so long, but it also doesn't make any sense to hold on when there's nothing there. All of those things you said, they were never true. I know you stopped caring a long time ago. And you, have pointed out my flaws again, as if I don't already see them. To be honest, I knew this all before. Cause your hands were cold when they found my chest... But life goes on like a memory that will never fade away. I'm about to take a scissor, so I can cut you out of my live. That's what happens when we're another day older than we used to be. You are there and I am here. Nothing more than a fact, nothing more than a new beginning, nothing more than what life is about.
I wrote this down last night, cause that's just really how I feel. The other day a friend showed up at my house. She gave me a postcard and some sweet chocolats. On the post card she wrote 'because you're a very special friend'. I felt so lucky that I have this kind of people around me in my life... I was smiling with tears in my eyes.
Lately, ive been wanting those Summer days and dreading school. My exams starting today and i'm really stressed out. I can make it, or break it. For now, all I want is nothing more than to stay up late by myself to think. To be on the beach or a brand new adventure with my friends. I wanna spend the day doing things i've never done before. Maybe all I want is spare time. But all those good times seem to come with the summer. Wish me luck!
'Oh holidays, did I already mentioned how much I love you?' 'Yes, you did... Like a 1000 times!' 'Well, I really love you!' That's right, now I can honestly say my week is filled with parties. My final exams are coming up within two weeks though... Whoops! Have a lovely time!